Let it stay...

Well, let's go over what I have:

- a roof over my head
- food (sometimes, provided I synchronize my life to the dining hall's schedule)

Let's go over what I don't have:

- laundry
- dishwasher
- heating
- telephone
- Internet access
- window curtains
- shower curtain
- a social life

I realize that it'll all be hunky-dory in a few months' time when this is all done, but I really don't care right now at this point where things are promised to be in a few months' time - I only really give a damn about the way things are now. And right now things really don't look so good.

The last few days have been really grating on me. And it's not just the lack of amenties which is frustrating me; it's just the general string of frustration which seems to be coming at me non-stop. It's nothing terribly substantially major, just things which build up over time, more and more. If it's not one thing, it's something else, and if it's not something else, it's something extra.

But there's one more thing. I'm completely, and totally alone. I've made aquaintances with one person, but she's hardly in a position where she's to fend for herself: she's got her family with her, as do many other people in the building. And for the people who don't, they're all wonderfully chummy with the others on their floor or in their suite.

Today, my roommate and I did some shopping for some essentials and it really hit home just how much of a disadvantage I am without a car. Ever moreso without a driver's license. This whole driver's license thing is starting to really get to me again - and while on the one hand I have a reasonably valid excuse for not having one, on the other hand I really don't. Stress, stress, stress. When will it ever end? Will it ever end?